二〇一五年安那翰夏季訓練—出埃及記結晶讀經（二）
能有六天的時間不去想別的人事物，只泡透在主的話上，是何等喜樂的事！在參加夏季訓練前，我很久沒有真正到主面前，例行性的禱讀，老舊的禱告，好像主的話不再吸引我，我與主距離也越來越遠。但感謝主讓我參加這次的訓練，給我一個新的開始。
訓練開頭的幾篇信息，弟兄們不斷強調，要做愛神的尋求者，要花時間讓神注入，這每一字每一句，都像是主在對我說話！求主除去我的老舊，使我再有更新的奉獻。我始終不能從愛主、追求主的事上畢業！
這次訓練我摸著什麼是律法，以前讀到十誡，只覺得是十條要我們遵守的誡命。但這次訓練說到這乃是神的十句話，當我們到律法這裏時，若不在愛裏尋求神，而把律法跟這位活神分開，那律法就會成為定罪和殺死的元素；但如果我們將律法的每一部分，都當作是我們所愛之神呼出的話，我們就會得著生命。因此神的話到底是殺死人的誡命抑或是愛的話，完全取決於我們的態度和光景如何、取決於我們是否向神敞開。求主除去一切的遮蔽，盼望我能一直用正確、純淨的心到主的話面前，「主阿，願我能越過越愛你的話，越過越愛你！
2015 Summer Training in Anaheim – Crystallization Study of Exodus (2)
What a joyful matter that I could spend six days to be soaked in the Lord’s word without thinking about anything else and anyone else! Before I attended the Summer Training, I had not come to the Lord in a real way for a very long a time; I just had the routine pray-readings with old prayers, as if the Lord’s word didn’t attract me any longer; my relationship with the Lord became more and more distant. However, thank the Lord that He caused me to participate in this training and granted me a new beginning.
In the first few messages, the brothers unceasingly emphasized that in order to be God’s loving seekers, we need to spend time being infused with God. It seemed that every word and phrase was the Lord’s speaking to me! May the Lord eliminate my oldness that I may renew my consecration to Him again. We should never graduate from the matter of loving the Lord and of pursuing the Lord!
In this training, I touched what the law is. Previously when I read the Ten Commandments, I merely thought that they were the commandments for us to keep. However, in this training, the brothers spoke that the Ten Commandment were the ten words of God. If in coming to the law we do not seek God but rather separate the law from the living God, the law will become a condemning and killing element to us. However, if we take every part of the law as the word breathed out by the God whom we love, we will have the law in the aspect of the life. Therefore, whether the Word of God is the killing commandments or the word of love or not, totally depends on how our attitude and condition are and whether we open ourselves to God. May the Lord take away all the covering. I hope that I can constantly come to the Word of God with a proper and pure heart. “O, Lord, May I love Your word more and more and love You more and more!”
